The life inside my head

There’s no telling in when it started or how it all come about. The only thing that is definite, is the ever changing me.

My physical world is all but a true reflection of my life, for my life is more lived in my mind. Oh yes, that very place that some see as “a psychotic-chamber”, seeing it as a negative collection of symptoms that affect the mind. Where there has been some loss of contact with reality. Not me. Call me psychotic if you must, clearly I will take it as a compliment for my creative mind.

If it is ‘a mental health problem’ that I have, then I wish it on everyone, for it will give you the greatest most joyful experience you could ever endure.

Perceiving and interpreting things of this world differently from those around me, is exactly what this piece is all about. It is about so much more than this pen can ever write, but I shall do my best to give you but a glimpse of my life, and who I am inside this world, this vessel.

Look once, look again, now…stare…for as long as you possibly can…stare. Don’t just look, feel… What do you feel? Calm, ready, aware yet lost? If your indoors, I suggest you go outside, even if it is raining, even better. Dance with your feet beer, your arms wide open and your eye shut.

This is all about to change.

Welcome, to my ever changing me. A space where you are free, in every sense. Free from anger, lust, frustration, plots and plans. Free to run, glide, stride and pons as you wish.

Your mind is you genie, your home. Keep it clean and clear from dirt and scum, is of utmost importance.

Be careful not to use this world inside, to relive that same road you have walked in you vessel, as it could continuously loop in your mind for longer than it should, causing a repeat of negative emotions. Stop yourself at once, once you enter ‘the loop’, as getting out might take years to overcome and discontinue.

This is not a place for others, only you have and should have access, but if you do share this, share only for yourself. Don’t show everyone whom you where ‘today’, for their minds are clouded by reality, or the disease they call sanity.

I had to loss contact with reality, in order to find myself, hiding from me.

So, my friend, when you endeavor on a journey, walk the path less traveled, or even better make a new way and decorate the path as you go.